1. Skipping school just because your only friend isn't going to be there.
Now I don't do this but I remember when I was younger, I hated coming in to school to see my only friend wasn't there now its not to say I didn't have any friends it just because I'm such an awkward person I panic and think that if I hang around with these other people they might get annoyed with and this still happens to me now but in the sense that If I can't find anyone I walk around alone till I do but I've kind of grown out of it so sometimes ill just go up to someone and say to myself just go it doesn't matter what they think.
2. Never talking about your feelings because the fear of anyone thinking of you a 'dramatic' or an 'attention seeker' haunts you.
All the time I'm not the sort of person to tell people my feeling or about my family because I really don't crave attention in fact I hate attention even in the airport when your coming out and all the people are standing there 30 seconds of hell for also because I can't make direct eye contact with people my friends have noticed that when their talking to me I look at their lips. I remember I missed 3 weeks of school one time and I only told a about 5 people the rest I just said don't worry because... I don't like attention at all but I mean I like to be noticed but don't like everyone looking at me and talking about me. This links to the 3rd one...
Now I don't do this but I remember when I was younger, I hated coming in to school to see my only friend wasn't there now its not to say I didn't have any friends it just because I'm such an awkward person I panic and think that if I hang around with these other people they might get annoyed with and this still happens to me now but in the sense that If I can't find anyone I walk around alone till I do but I've kind of grown out of it so sometimes ill just go up to someone and say to myself just go it doesn't matter what they think.
2. Never talking about your feelings because the fear of anyone thinking of you a 'dramatic' or an 'attention seeker' haunts you.
All the time I'm not the sort of person to tell people my feeling or about my family because I really don't crave attention in fact I hate attention even in the airport when your coming out and all the people are standing there 30 seconds of hell for also because I can't make direct eye contact with people my friends have noticed that when their talking to me I look at their lips. I remember I missed 3 weeks of school one time and I only told a about 5 people the rest I just said don't worry because... I don't like attention at all but I mean I like to be noticed but don't like everyone looking at me and talking about me. This links to the 3rd one...
3. Holding coughs in class so you don't draw attention to yourself.
Its true I may die one day because I hold my coughs and also when I choke on water or something I try and make as little sound as possible. Not to forget when I go out the class in the middle of the lesson and I'm coming back I usually stop in front of the door and try to contain myself because I know when I walk in everyone's going to look at me.
4. Being worried that your skirt isn't tucked into your underwear so you constantly feel to make sure it's not.
This doesn't only happen to me with my skirt but my hair what I'm wear etc.
5. When you hear whispering and always think their talking about you.
Worst thing ever I hate it so much I always try not to look and pretend I don't care even if its not about me I get to anxious and start to become worried of what I look like.
Now I know I made a post about we shouldn't care what people say about us this is completely different because that was saying when you don't like someone you shouldn't listen to what they say and or care and shouldn't let affect you but this is more of my paranoia.
But if I could I would tell you that you shouldn't care but I feel as I get paranoid I can't say that but consider this quote...
No comments:
Post a Comment